Холостячкa #15 Hannah Brown

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“The only thing that was ever wrong with me was my belief that something was wrong with me.” (c)

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“The only thing that was ever wrong with me was my belief that something was wrong with me.” (c)

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“The only thing that was ever wrong with me was my belief that something was wrong with me.” (c)

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“The only thing that was ever wrong with me was my belief that something was wrong with me.” (c)

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“The only thing that was ever wrong with me was my belief that something was wrong with me.” (c)

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“The only thing that was ever wrong with me was my belief that something was wrong with me.” (c)

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“The only thing that was ever wrong with me was my belief that something was wrong with me.” (c)

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“The only thing that was ever wrong with me was my belief that something was wrong with me.” (c)

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“The only thing that was ever wrong with me was my belief that something was wrong with me.” (c)

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“The only thing that was ever wrong with me was my belief that something was wrong with me.” (c)

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“The only thing that was ever wrong with me was my belief that something was wrong with me.” (c)

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“The only thing that was ever wrong with me was my belief that something was wrong with me.” (c)

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“The only thing that was ever wrong with me was my belief that something was wrong with me.” (c)

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"I dn’t aspire to be on The Bachelor. I didn’t watch the show. I thought it was for losers truly.” Brown is telling me this over pistachio guacamole and fish tacos at the Rooftop by JG in L.A. She’s just moved here. To Sherman Oaks, to be exact (so near to her friend and fellow Bachelor castmate Demi Burnett that they each have a key to the other’s place). But Brown’s not quite sure where she fits in. She’s struggling. Although she might have had trouble getting acclimated to post-show life even if she had returned to Alabama.
Brown is a feminist icon now, a mantle bestowed upon her by no less than former Barack Obama aide Alyssa Mastromonaco. She has 2.4 million Instagram followers, and people like me want to write stories about her. “Getting Instagram followers when I got back home was freaking me out,” says Brown. “Everybody gains followers, but it was like, Okay, I’m about to have a life with another human, and that’s what I’m going to be focusing on. And that didn’t happen. So now I have all these random humans who are really interested in me and what I have to offer. And I’m like, I actually have a lot to offer, don’t I?”

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“The only thing that was ever wrong with me was my belief that something was wrong with me.” (c)

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“The only thing that was ever wrong with me was my belief that something was wrong with me.” (c)

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“I say this not in a bad way, but this”—Brown is referring to the ability to focus on herself and her many newfound opportunities—“is kind of my consolation prize. But it’s the best consolation prize I could have.”
The first opportunity Brown is pursuing is a stint on Dancing With the Stars. It’s a fairly common Bachelor alum next step (see: Melissa Rycroft, Nick Viall, Jake Pavelka, et al.). But for Brown it’s more than another 15 minutes of fame. “It’s not just about winning the Mirrorball,” though Brown assures me she wants that first-place trophy. “I want to be in this competition as long as possible because I know I need this growth.”

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“The only thing that was ever wrong with me was my belief that something was wrong with me.” (c)

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“The only thing that was ever wrong with me was my belief that something was wrong with me.” (c)

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Insecurities followed her to The Bachelorette. They’re how we all ended up with so many weeks of The Luke Parker Show. Despite 25 men vying for her attention, Brown insists she was “so unconfident” about being the Bachelorette. “I knew that none of the guys thought it was going to be me. I was the dark horse. They all expected probably Hannah G.”
Much of Bachelor Nation was bemused by Brown’s casting too—a consequence, perhaps, of her brain freeze during her first one-on-one date with Colton Underwood on The Bachelor (something Brown, who was, in fact, a public-speaking coach in college, attributes to anxiety). Thankfully, Chris Harrison, the franchise’s fairy godfather host and executive producer, wasn’t listening to the skeptics: “What we saw as producers was an incredible, dynamic woman who was really willing to share herself with everybody in the best, most open and vulnerable way.”
Still, Brown had her guard up. “I hated when the guys were like, ‘I was so excited when I found out it was you’ or ‘I wanted it to be you.’ Bullshit.”
But then there was Parker. The born-again virgin from Georgia with sharp suits and sharper abs. The two connected over their shared Christian faith, speaking scripture to each other in a way that seemed to outsiders like its own language. “He had a hold on me. The first night, he said all the right things,” she recalls. “He made me feel like, Okay, somebody is here actually for me. It’s kinda sad when I think about it, that I was like, Okay, I’ve got one.”

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“The only thing that was ever wrong with me was my belief that something was wrong with me.” (c)

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“The only thing that was ever wrong with me was my belief that something was wrong with me.” (c)

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“The only thing that was ever wrong with me was my belief that something was wrong with me.” (c)

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“The only thing that was ever wrong with me was my belief that something was wrong with me.” (c)

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“The only thing that was ever wrong with me was my belief that something was wrong with me.” (c)

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“The only thing that was ever wrong with me was my belief that something was wrong with me.” (c)

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“The only thing that was ever wrong with me was my belief that something was wrong with me.” (c)