Американский Холостяк #21 Nick Viall

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“The only thing that was ever wrong with me was my belief that something was wrong with me.” (c)

barish

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“The only thing that was ever wrong with me was my belief that something was wrong with me.” (c)

barish

Going into our dinner, I was on such a high. I was excited to spend more time with Vanessa in the hopes that we could build on the magic that we experienced earlier in the day.

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“The only thing that was ever wrong with me was my belief that something was wrong with me.” (c)

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Sitting down with Vanessa, we connected so easily. Talking about family, relationships and what we want in our futures.

The chemistry between us intensified. I’d always found her beautiful, but our emotional connection took hold. I didn’t expect to get emotional around Vanessa and thinking back to that moment it was because I felt an incredible sense of excitement, and hope. Starting this journey, I was stressed this wouldn’t work out. Not because there weren’t amazing women, but I just know how rare it is to find a lifelong love. I feel like I had put a lot of pressure on myself to be the best, or be the man every one of the women wanted me to be. But in that moment with Vanessa, it was clear, that if a connection like this could happen this early, then this whole thing could lead to finding the one. I walked away from that night with a new sense of confidence not only in myself, but in this journey … and Vanessa was a woman I would be lucky to have as a partner.

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“The only thing that was ever wrong with me was my belief that something was wrong with me.” (c)

barish

As we move into the last date of the week, I just want to go on the official record that I did not come up with the name Nickcathalon. I will say, this was such an epic date! To have Carl Lewis, Allyson Felix and Michelle Carter help us with our track and field skills was unreal.

These are some seriously talented and impressive athletes. I remember watching Carl Lewis as a kid, and aspiring to be as good as him. He was — and still is — such an idol of mine.

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“The only thing that was ever wrong with me was my belief that something was wrong with me.” (c)

barish

Before the woman arrived, I thought I’d put my track shoes on and see if I could impress him. I ended up with a 5:21 mile … not my best work, but also not bad for someone who was basically in space the day before. Astronauts, feel free to have my back here.
I was eager to spend time with Dominique and Rachel since we didn’t have dates last week. Rachel and I had a strong connection from the night we met, so much so that I’d given her my first impression rose.

Dominique was a woman I was intrigued by, but we just hadn’t had the chance to develop a strong connection yet. I was looking forward to spending time with Dominique and seeing her personality come through on this date.

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“The only thing that was ever wrong with me was my belief that something was wrong with me.” (c)

barish

From limo long jumps, to the cupid javelin, this track and field date was over the top. Who else can say that Olympic athletes paved the way to a hot tub prize?

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“The only thing that was ever wrong with me was my belief that something was wrong with me.” (c)

barish

I’m not surprised Alexis, Rachel and Astrid made it to the final competition: the dash.

They had excelled in not only their athletic chops, but had been so much fun throughout the day. When the horn blew, it took no time at all for Rachel to leave the Alexis and Astrid in her dust.

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“The only thing that was ever wrong with me was my belief that something was wrong with me.” (c)

barish

But did this race take a turn or what. In the moment, that ring drop happened so fast!

We all knew Rachel was technically the winner, but props to Astrid for getting her hands on that diamond.

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“The only thing that was ever wrong with me was my belief that something was wrong with me.” (c)

barish

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“The only thing that was ever wrong with me was my belief that something was wrong with me.” (c)

barish

As much as I wanted to spend extra time with all the women, it was awesome to have this moment with Astrid.

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“The only thing that was ever wrong with me was my belief that something was wrong with me.” (c)

barish

I also felt terrible because what you didn’t see, was the ring shattering when Astrid picked it up from the track. Her hand was cut up and bleeding all over the place, but she never lost her smile. After applying quite a few band aids, she got into the hot tub but had to keep her hand out of the chlorine so it wouldn’t sting. Talk about a badass.

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“The only thing that was ever wrong with me was my belief that something was wrong with me.” (c)

barish

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“The only thing that was ever wrong with me was my belief that something was wrong with me.” (c)

barish

Heading into the after party there was one woman I couldn’t get off my mind, Dominique.

Unfortunately, she just couldn’t get out of her own head. I felt terrible that Dominique questioned herself and how amazing she is.

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“The only thing that was ever wrong with me was my belief that something was wrong with me.” (c)

barish

I could see something the night we met, I saw a spark there – but once we sat down, I just didn’t see it any longer.

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“The only thing that was ever wrong with me was my belief that something was wrong with me.” (c)

barish

This environment doesn’t work for everyone, and I felt in that moment that Dominique would never be able to be her best self in this journey. I didn’t need more time to think about it, and I didn’t want to take her into another rose ceremony if I already knew what I was going to do. Saying goodbye to Dominique was sad, but I knew it was the right choice for us both.

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“The only thing that was ever wrong with me was my belief that something was wrong with me.” (c)

barish

While saying goodbye to Dominique was a low moment in the evening, it had still been full of many highs. Astrid and I kept the spark going, and I’m not just talking about that bling ring. Alexis had me laughing all night when she revealed that she had taken the giant embarrassing print out of myself.
By the time Rachel and I spoke, we seemed to just seamlessly pick up right where we left off from the first night. That was something I really loved about Rachel that day. We didn’t have a date the week prior, but she jumped into the day with confidence that absolutely captured me.

I felt like we had strong chemistry that day, and once we had alone time that evening, it was clear to me who I wanted to give the group date rose to.

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“The only thing that was ever wrong with me was my belief that something was wrong with me.” (c)

barish

I woke up the morning of the rose ceremony and knew I needed to shake things up a bit. I didn’t regret sending Dominique home the night before, but it certainly reminded me of how much pressure these women must be feeling, especially since it was still the first few weeks of starting this journey. I decided that a pool party was the best choice to get to know these women in a more natural setting without the pressure of a cocktail party.

I was also interested in showing off my BBQ skills because if I might be so bold to admit it, I am a true master at the grill.

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“The only thing that was ever wrong with me was my belief that something was wrong with me.” (c)

barish

As the beautiful Alexis stated, “Seventeen girls, one pool party, one Nick … let’s see what happens” — and sure enough, there was a lot to see.

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“The only thing that was ever wrong with me was my belief that something was wrong with me.” (c)

barish

It was awesome just how hyped up the women were for the pool party. We had the BBQ going, pool floats and something you guys didn’t see, an impromptu dance party. When Corinne pulled me into the bounce castle, I honestly didn’t expect it to become the controversy it did.

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“The only thing that was ever wrong with me was my belief that something was wrong with me.” (c)

barish

By then, Corinne had proven herself to be a woman who was always thinking of a unique way to get my attention.

It didn’t surprise me that she would want to pull me aside to do something different. After a few minutes of jumping around and kissing, I felt like it was time to go back to the party. The chemistry between us was strong, but there were so many other qualities that drew me to her.

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“The only thing that was ever wrong with me was my belief that something was wrong with me.” (c)

barish

When the other women started to question her, and then question me — it was hard to answer.

I stand by Corinne and her confidence. During my time on Andi’s season and Kaitlyn’s season, I too was questioned constantly. I appreciated Corinne for always putting us first. But when Vanessa started to question me, I stepped back and had to think about it. Were my actions contradicting what I was here for? Was I being unfairly called out? I had so much respect for all the women and I’ve always respected someone who challenges me. I honestly felt sick because I wanted to be fair, but follow my heart. Could I do both?

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“The only thing that was ever wrong with me was my belief that something was wrong with me.” (c)

barish

Next week you’ll see how things go down with Vanessa and I, as well as the rest of the women. I know the decisions I make can’t please everyone. The pool party didn’t exactly end on the note I wanted, so timing couldn’t have been better to hit the road and start traveling. The first stop next week is huge for me and my relationships as we head to my hometown of Waukesha, Wisconsin. I don’t think any of the women expected to meet my family this soon. All I can say is things get pretty serious, and the drama never stops. The cocktail party becomes a setting for a major blow up between women where shots get fired. My chemistry with these ladies isn’t the only thing heating up — tensions are really starting to run high. You won’t want to miss it.

Thanks for reading,
Nick

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“The only thing that was ever wrong with me was my belief that something was wrong with me.” (c)

Cheerio

сомневаюсь что короткие перепады между 0g и 2g создают тот же эффект на мышечную массу, что и длительное пребывание на орбите

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- I thought I knew what to do. I failed.
- Good. Now go fail again.

Cheerio

мне показались немного странными слова Ванессы, что она посмотрела пару (few) серий одного из сезонов. Говорилось это в контексте того, что она не знает Ника. Мне всегда казалось странным когда участницы не смотрят шоу, на которое идут, ещё более странным, когда не смотрят сезон своего Холостяка, и в случае Ванессы - ну очень странно отсутствие интереса, учитывая как она хотела чтобы именно он был Холостяком. И не то чтобы на это требовалось слишком много времени - если смотреть сезон ради одного человека, 90% эфира можно промотать.

И мне кажется её наезд на пул-парти был во многом обусловлен её плохим пониманием того, как это шоу работает. Ник не может с самого начала обозначить себе топ3-4, и целоваться только с ними, это убьёт интригу. У Ника есть определённые обязательства перед оргами. Потому, кстати, орги и берут доморощенных Холостяков - они более сговорчивы, чем приглашённые звёзды.

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- I thought I knew what to do. I failed.
- Good. Now go fail again.