Американский Холостяк #20 Ben Higgins

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“The only thing that was ever wrong with me was my belief that something was wrong with me.” (c)

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“The only thing that was ever wrong with me was my belief that something was wrong with me.” (c)

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“The only thing that was ever wrong with me was my belief that something was wrong with me.” (c)

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“The only thing that was ever wrong with me was my belief that something was wrong with me.” (c)

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“The only thing that was ever wrong with me was my belief that something was wrong with me.” (c)

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I wish they'd cut to a shot of Olivia still standing alone on the beach. #TheBachelor

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The Bachelor s20e07

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Ben Higgins' Bachelor Blog: 'Sometimes Watching This Back I Just Cringe'

Isn't Warsaw great?!
I live in Denver now, but Warsaw, Indiana, will always be home. It is fun for me to watch that episode so that everyone can see what a great city Warsaw is. Everyone has these ideas about what Indiana is, but I honestly could not imagine a better place to grow up than in Warsaw. It's a great place to raise a family, and the community is warm and friendly and welcoming. I can't thank the city enough for all the love they showed us and how they opened their arms and just wrapped us up this past week. It was truly a humbling and also a little weird when the same people I walked by on the street for 18 years were now rushing to shake my hand and thanking me for coming back. It really meant the world to me.

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That said, it sure doesn't get any easier does it? Every time I think the hardest parts are behind me and I am looking forward to an easy week, I am faced with the idea of hometowns and choosing whose family I am ready to meet.
I know when you watch it at home you probably don't feel much sympathy for me – and you shouldn't because this has been a wonderful opportunity for me – but I really can't tell you how much I care about each one of these women. The idea of sending any of them home or hurting them at all literally keeps me up at night. Not to mention the fact that the stakes are so high for me personally. I mean, these decisions are potentially about forever to me. Every decision I make I have to be sure of or I could be regretting it for the rest of my life. If that doesn't make you sweat I don't know what will.
What was really helpful and what I couldn't wait for though was seeing my family this week. This has been such an emotionally draining experience and even though I am constantly surrounded by people, from the girls to the camera guys and the producers, it still can feel really lonely at times. So seeing them and being able to catch them up on everything that had been happening to hopefully gain a little bit of perspective meant the world to me. It also just grounded me. It's easy to get caught up on this journey and get used to having everyone take care of you and have all these women sing my praises, but nothing sets your feet back down to earth like seeing mom and dad.

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It also just felt so great to be back on the lake! Being the Bachelor can be so cool and so crazy, traveling the globe and doing all these amazing things but being back where I spent my childhood really just made me feel like me again. And the house the women were staying in is literally four houses away from where I grew up! It is a family friend's place, and it was so incredibly kind of them to let us use it (they even brought the ladies a home-cooked meal one night while they were there. I love Indiana!) But it also felt just so normal driving over to their dock.

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What was NOT normal is that all these unbelievably beautiful women that I was dating were staying there! So cool. And I could not wait to get started with these dates this week. Not only because it was such an important week with hometowns coming up, but also because I just wanted to show these women my town!

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I'll echo what the girls said though, asking Lauren out in front of them all was definitely awkward. And the second I did it I could feel the energy sucked out of the room. It's a really hard situation, but I just have to do what I think is best and after the way last week ended with Lauren B., I really felt like we needed to address our issues and get them out of the way if we were going to be able to move forward.
But before that, I just wanted to have fun. I was so excited that I was able to share my hometown and the places that were special to me with Lauren so while I knew we needed to address last week at some point, I didn't want to spoil what I knew was going to be an unforgettable day either.

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Showing Lauren around my hometown just felt right. After all these extravagant dates for which I am forever grateful, this just felt so normal and I loved that. Seeing how genuinely interested and excited she was really meant a lot to me too.

But the place that might mean more to me than any other on the entire planet is the Baker Youth Club. I wouldn't be the man I am today without my experience at Baker's and with the people there – both the employees and the kids. They truly impacted my life in ways I can't possibly describe.
Being able to see those kids and Tracy brought a smile to my face that is still there as I write this. But because this place meant so much to me, I really wanted to do something special for them. As The Bachelor I have had so many new opportunities open up to me. Things I never thought I could do or would be possible. But all of that would mean nothing if I couldn't share it with the people that I love and the people that got me here. So seeing those kids' faces light up when Paul George, George Hill, Frank Voegel and Boomer walked in was priceless. I'll remember that forever.

By the way, can we talk about how awesome Paul George is?! This guy is playing out of his mind right now! Okay, sorry, I know this isn't about sports I just had to say it because wow.

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Anyway, the whole point of all of this is how awesome it was to watch Lauren just soak all this up and enjoy it just as much as, if not more than, I did. It showed me so much about her character, and I knew right then and there that she was definitely the woman that I thought she was. I knew we still needed to talk about it that night and get it out of the way between us but watching her that day, I didn't doubt her even a little anymore.

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So that night, while I knew I still trusted Lauren, we still needed to talk about it. Because I knew that, but she didn't yet. And communication is so vital in any relationship that I felt like it was important that we both understood where we were coming from and what we were feeling. What she said to me was perfect and I felt like that night we maybe came further as a couple than we ever had to that point.

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What shocked me watching it that night was hearing Lauren say she was in love with me. I know to a lot of you this is a TV show and that you expect stuff like this, but I had no idea. I had no idea that she had said that and felt that that night until right now. It's really great to watch that and hear that and know that it wasn't just me that felt our relationship really take a step up to a new level that night.

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I was VERY excited for my next date with JoJo. I just let my sports geek side show a minute ago when talking about Paul George, but I am the BIGGEST Cubs fan ever. Warsaw isn't far from Chicago, and my dad and I really bonded over watching and talking about the Cubs when I was growing up. In fact, one thing that no one knows is that my dad actually snuck onto the field before I got there that day. The Cubs are really strict about who they give access to on a day like this so it was supposed to be me, JoJo and the crew only. No one else and they were very strict about it. But I had told my dad what the date was so before I even got there, my dad snuck in and pretended to be part of the crew. I guess with so many other people walking around no one noticed that it was my dad! So funny and so glad it happened even though it was a total mystery to me till several days later.

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But anyway, I am a huge Cubs fan and being allowed to do this that day was a memory I will have forever. Being able to share it with JoJo, I can't even begin to describe how special that was. I said it to my parents earlier that week, but I don't think I am as much myself with anyone as I am with JoJo. She just allows me to have this comfort and feel like I don't have to hold anything back. For a guy like me who hasn't always felt cool or comfortable in his own skin, that is really something I value. So being able to share that day with JoJo meant everything to me. She is such a fun girl and, despite not knowing much about baseball, still enjoyed every moment and was appreciative of everything we got to do. You didn't see all of it but we actually went up and sang "Take Me out to the Ballgame," too, and going into the scoreboard is something they don't allow anyone to do. I am truly a blessed man.

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