Американский Холостяк #20 Ben Higgins

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“The only thing that was ever wrong with me was my belief that something was wrong with me.” (c)

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“The only thing that was ever wrong with me was my belief that something was wrong with me.” (c)

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“The only thing that was ever wrong with me was my belief that something was wrong with me.” (c)

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“The only thing that was ever wrong with me was my belief that something was wrong with me.” (c)

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“The only thing that was ever wrong with me was my belief that something was wrong with me.” (c)

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Lauren Bushnell ‏@LaurenBushnell3
@beccatilley5 I love you sooooo much. So lucky to call you a friend

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“The only thing that was ever wrong with me was my belief that something was wrong with me.” (c)

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“The only thing that was ever wrong with me was my belief that something was wrong with me.” (c)

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“The only thing that was ever wrong with me was my belief that something was wrong with me.” (c)

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The Bachelor s20e06

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Cheerio

вот. Я не уверен относительно данного случая, но в прошлом было много подозрительных роз на групповых свиданиях, причём на проектах разных стран. Часто это девушка, которая выглядит явным аутсайдером, но с высоким драматическим потенциалом и конфликтным (но не всегда) характером. И раз уж даже такая востребованная роза может быть предметом торга, то логично предположить что роза на церемонии роз очень даже может быть дана девушке по выбору продюсеров.

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- I thought I knew what to do. I failed.
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Ben Higgins' Bachelor Blog: Why This Week Made Me Felt Like I Had Ruined Everything

Wow. That was intense. Even watching it back I got uncomfortable because that week was just filled with so much angst. It was really the first time since this whole thing started that I started to doubt everything.

And I said from the beginning when all those "Perfect Ben" commercials were on TV that I was far from perfect, and I think over the past two weeks you've seen the evidence of that. I make mistakes, and I think anyone would when on a journey like this, but this was the week where I thought my mistakes might really cost me the love that I came here to find.

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Anyway, enough with the generalities, let's start from the beginning and dive in!

Let's start with Olivia. I'll get to the two-on-one date in a bit, but let's start with Mexico City. I expressed how last week really shooked me, hearing that women like Emily and Amanda and Jen thought so poorly of Olivia. And while you all have had the benefit of seeing Olivia while she's with the other women and in her interviews, I didn't. All I saw was what she presented to me in person. And that was that of a beautiful, poised woman who may have been controversial by being a little aggressive and talking to me first in group situations, but I didn't see that as any sort of egregious offense. But what I was hearing now was really shaking me. And it was happening all at once. Quickly.
I was struggling to process what was such a game-changing moment, and I likely should've been upfront with my concerns right when Olivia grabbed me after Emily, but I was still reeling from what I heard. But after talking to the other women, I knew I could not go into this rose ceremony without talking to Olivia again.

I try to put myself in the shoes of the women often when I make decisions. And when I put myself in Olivia's shoes, I knew I would want a chance to face these accusations and tell my side of the story before anything drastic were to happen. So that was my intention in pulling Olivia aside. I just wanted to hear what she had to say about all of this. What I heard though honestly just confused me even further. In essence, I heard that Olivia agreed that she and the other women did not get along. But in hearing her side and why it was never brought to me, I respected that. She didn't want to cause a problem if she felt she could handle it. I sincerely wish that she had felt enough comfort with me to come to me with her problems but I also respect that this is an accelerated process and she didn't want to waste our time with problems that she felt weren't pressing.

However, there were also some alarming things in what she said to me. When she was describing her differences, I could see how those statements could be hurtful and condescending to the other women. That she felt herself on a level above them or looked down upon them. And it made me wonder if there was more to Olivia thinking of herself as intimidating than just being a woman I had singled out as a "front-runner." (I use quotations because I hate using that term in what is not a competition. It is a journey of people trying to find out if they can legitimately see a life with one another. I just can't think of a better term at the moment so I'm forced to use it.)

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“The only thing that was ever wrong with me was my belief that something was wrong with me.” (c)

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But when all of this was said and done, what I knew is that I didn't yet know enough. I didn't want to make a rash, emotional decision. I had two big fears (amongst many others) coming into this: One was having the wool pulled over my eyes and having a woman make me fall in love with a person that she really wasn't; the second was saying goodbye to someone that I could really see a future with too soon and regretting it. On this night I was being confronted with both.
I decided that I needed more time to make this decision and I would respect the feelings I had had for Olivia and trust my gut to give her that rose in the first place. I mean I would hate to send a woman as amazing as Olivia home simply because she was misunderstood by a group of women also dating the same guy as her. But I won't lie and say that my guard was definitely up at this point and my eyes open.
But I still had to say goodbye to someone that night, and sadly that was Jen. Jen was a woman that frankly wowed me on night one. I mean, how could she not? She's beautiful and smart and intriguing. But I found myself here, five weeks later still just intrigued. I felt like I was only seeing glimpses of her and was still waiting for her to feel comfortable enough to open and let me see who she really was. And I felt like I had really tried – maybe more so than with anyone else outside of Jubilee – but I had gotten to the point where I was simply further along with other woman than with Jen. And I didn't see that changing. This is a difficult environment to open up in, and it didn't seem like Jen was going to be able to do that. She is going to make some man extremely happy one day. That was a hard goodbye.
"intriguing Jen" на более ранней ЦР:

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As hard as all of that was, I was ready to get to the Bahamas and start a fresh week. The Grand Isle Resort and just Great Exuma Island itself was just so beautiful. I thought his would be the perfect week to put the drama of Mexico City behind us and move forward.

Little did I know that even more drama awaited me here.

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I knew that asking Caila on a second one-on-one would cause some controversy. But I felt that it was something I needed to do. Caila had caught my eye and my attention from the very beginning – I mean from the moment she jumped in my arms out of the limo really. But our first date, as fun as it was, really didn't allow us to get to know each other. And for the chemistry that we had together, it still seemed too surface-level to be getting this close to hometown dates.
If last week in Mexico taught me anything it was that I could not afford to waste time and keep women that I just liked. I did not come on The Bachelor to just find a great girl that I'll date for a while. I really came her to find a future wife. So this date needed to happen. I needed answers when it came to Caila.

So as fun as the day was, checking off a bucket list item of deep sea fishing, I went into the night knowing that we needed to get somewhere. What I got in response was really unexpected in a lot of ways. I was so confused, and I wasn't lying when I said there was a point in that conversation where I was pretty positive that Caila was breaking up with me.

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“The only thing that was ever wrong with me was my belief that something was wrong with me.” (c)

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But as confused as I was, the more we talked the more I realized that there was so much more to Caila than I had originally thought. This was a woman with real depth of thought. A woman that would challenge me. And what was almost more important than any of that was that – as much as I still didn't understand exactly what Caila was hiding behind that perfect smile – I was 100 percent sure that I wanted to take the time to find out. And that even though she wasn't fully ready to dive in and open up just yet, she wanted to stay here and keep trying with me too. So while I walked away still unsure of whether or not Caila was my future wife, I was absolutely sure that I wanted to take the time to find out.

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“The only thing that was ever wrong with me was my belief that something was wrong with me.” (c)

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It was at the group date that this week really started to go downhill. Which is a hard thing to do when you are going to swim with pigs in the Bahamas (I mean c'mon?! swimming pigs!!! How cool is that?!) … but it definitely did. At first everything seemed fine and fun. The boat ride was great, the feeding the pigs was hilarious and fun (they were NOT pork hot dogs guys! Chicken! I promise! I triple-checked!), even if the pigs were WAY more aggressive than we thought they would be. But then I really started to notice some tension amongst the women – but not towards each other. Definitely towards me.

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“The only thing that was ever wrong with me was my belief that something was wrong with me.” (c)

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It wasn't until much later that I heard there was some rumor going around that I had supposedly told Lauren B. that she was the only one I cared about (as lovely as Lauren B. is, that was definitely not true) that some of it started to make sense. But initially I was baffled. These women that had just been having such a great time suddenly seemed mad at me or at least didn't care about me anymore. It was like someone flipped a switch.

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“The only thing that was ever wrong with me was my belief that something was wrong with me.” (c)

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I started trying to figure out what was going on and my conversations with Becca and JoJo, and I could tell from those that it had something to do with me giving too much attention to Lauren B. I was confused, though, since I really hadn't spent that much time with her that day. And definitely not more than anyone else. And I knew that because I always try to be so conscious of things like that on these group dates with spending too much time with anyone or making anyone feel left out.

So I assumed that was what was upsetting Leah as well, but once I grabbed her to talk it was apparent right from the start that there was more to that. She was really hurt that I had taken Caila on a second date before I had taken her on a first one. I actually think I was so worried about upsetting Emily and Olivia for being on the two-on-one without having had a one-on-one date that I thought Leah would understand. But I was wrong, and I really can see where she is coming from. In fact she told me that she would've actually preferred the two-on-one. Like I said, I'm not perfect and this was definitely one of the mistakes I made this week.
C'mon Ben, а что ты мог сделать? :dntkw:
Это же шоу, у него свои правила! И оно не о том, чтобы никого в нем не обидеть, это просто невозможно! :ph34r:

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Так я не понял, Оливию бросили на необитаемом острове?

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Да, она всем надоела...

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Does anyone know if Olivia ever made it off the island? #TheBachelor

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Вот ее последняя фотка оттуда...

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Пару недель назад ты постила фото волосатых ног. Так эта заросшая морда от тех ног?

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ага, это были фотки с острова, она основательно обросла, поскольку не могла там бриться...
Бен, когда удирал с острова, забрал последнюю лодку... :rolleyes:

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