Холостячкa #11

barish

Watching Shawn's reaction later in the night at the after party was extremely painful. I never want to be responsible for causing pain to another. There was something so real between us, and I understand why he was hurting. We are both very passionate people, and that makes dating other people very hard. It doesn't make sense, yet it's the world we were living in. So do you even try to make sense of it? Or do you just battle through the days.

We had such a strong connection from the beginning. We started UP HERE (that's me holding my hand as high as it can go). We were bound to go through tough times, ups and downs, especially starting off that strong. And I understood the confusion and hurt he was going through – after all I have been in those shoes, too. It was never easy for me to see Chris Soules dating other women. And trying to accept that it's a show to date other guys is a strange concept. I can't even wrap my head around it. So I don't expect anyone else to.

Again. This is hard. I'm really trying my best here. I never could have expected it to be this challenging. I hope you can respect that I am a person with feelings too. And I did the best I could sorting out those feelings while dating all these men. It wasn't easy. And it's sure not easy watching it all back. But please, stick with me.

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“The only thing that was ever wrong with me was my belief that something was wrong with me.” (c)

barish

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“The only thing that was ever wrong with me was my belief that something was wrong with me.” (c)

barish

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“The only thing that was ever wrong with me was my belief that something was wrong with me.” (c)

barish

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“The only thing that was ever wrong with me was my belief that something was wrong with me.” (c)

barish

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“The only thing that was ever wrong with me was my belief that something was wrong with me.” (c)

barish

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“The only thing that was ever wrong with me was my belief that something was wrong with me.” (c)

barish

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“The only thing that was ever wrong with me was my belief that something was wrong with me.” (c)

barish

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“The only thing that was ever wrong with me was my belief that something was wrong with me.” (c)

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Jillian Harris
GAHHHHH Nick. Ok listen. Did Kaitlyn make a mistake gettin’ down before the fantasy suites? Maybe. But if YOU have NEVER made one of these spur of the moment rash decisions in your life, you really can’t judge. I mean their chemistry was undeniable, and while the two of them are grown adults able to make their own call … I can guarantee you there was SOME coaching behind the scenes to go back to the room … and to have some ‘privacy’ in her bedroom. I’ll bet neither one of them intended on it going that far, but it did, and honestly that is their perogative. I don’t care about the ‘RULES’ or really about the other guys. It sounds SUPER rash and mean but I look at it this way. SHE IS LOOKING FOR HER FOREVER. The only rules are she MUST follow her heart along the way and do what SHE feels is necessary to find that person … and SOMETIMES (AND I SPEAK FROM VERY STRONG EXPERIENCE) making MISTAKES brings you closer to what you are looking for.

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“The only thing that was ever wrong with me was my belief that something was wrong with me.” (c)

barish

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“The only thing that was ever wrong with me was my belief that something was wrong with me.” (c)

barish

__________________
“The only thing that was ever wrong with me was my belief that something was wrong with me.” (c)

barish

__________________
“The only thing that was ever wrong with me was my belief that something was wrong with me.” (c)

barish

__________________
“The only thing that was ever wrong with me was my belief that something was wrong with me.” (c)

barish

__________________
“The only thing that was ever wrong with me was my belief that something was wrong with me.” (c)

barish

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“The only thing that was ever wrong with me was my belief that something was wrong with me.” (c)

barish

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“The only thing that was ever wrong with me was my belief that something was wrong with me.” (c)

barish

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“The only thing that was ever wrong with me was my belief that something was wrong with me.” (c)

barish

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“The only thing that was ever wrong with me was my belief that something was wrong with me.” (c)

barish

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“The only thing that was ever wrong with me was my belief that something was wrong with me.” (c)

barish

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“The only thing that was ever wrong with me was my belief that something was wrong with me.” (c)

barish

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“The only thing that was ever wrong with me was my belief that something was wrong with me.” (c)

barish

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“The only thing that was ever wrong with me was my belief that something was wrong with me.” (c)

barish

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“The only thing that was ever wrong with me was my belief that something was wrong with me.” (c)

barish

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“The only thing that was ever wrong with me was my belief that something was wrong with me.” (c)

barish

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“The only thing that was ever wrong with me was my belief that something was wrong with me.” (c)